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Title_Damn Deep (burnt)

I am falling, crashing down.
I want to say, No I got to tell you something..
It's important too, so listen up and shut your mouth
For (once) its my turn Miss Righteous..
So sh hush.

I am gonna take you with me.
It's well its gonna be amazing.
Will be the fire touching down in the sky.
The ashes smoke, covering the wind with smog.
This time around..
It's Me who will be
The misshape, and mayhem..
You know what girl (friend)
I have wanted this more than anything..
More in fact than a kid wants Christmas or their birthday..

I am gonna burn you till you're as black,
And rotted out as I was
The many (many) ways I felt burnt to a crisp ..
That was just how much you made me feel..
In the beginning anyways..
But you were so much worse than I could ever be..

I am going to hurt you.
That's not even a lie
it's the god given promise.
Hurt you like all those times you've gone and hurt me.
The scars there so damn deep that they create words..
Monstrous ugly hideous words..

They shower my body as if I were the plant and
they were the way of my existence..
The salt it sneaks in.
Heals all those "words" that have become my war wounds.
That you've put on me.
I am a bloody mess.
But I bet to death that you never even noticed that.
You're the knife that slices into the cuts and scratches.
Always you were always digging deeper.
Till you went to the no return.
Further than needed.

Before too long sweetheart. there will be nothing of me.
But my own white bones to bear.
You're the scars that have woven inside my skin
As it you're the needle at sharp point to my cloth.
Cruel yet, beautiful as well.
You're the scar that no Band-Aid can cure or clean.
Your that tattoo, I tried but failed to remove..
I could never rid of you properly.
You're the missile that sunk my battleship.

But I am gonna take you,
And crush collision head on with you.
Will fall into the ocean but I will let myself out before we drop.
You're going in its going to be so dark.

You won't surface or find the light that's been bleak.
Your gonna suffocate and choke, Like I did every time
you made a joke.
It was supposedly about us..
But really it was a clear, clever, trick definite on how dumb or wrong I was.

Like you were the little miss perfect astronaut.
That decided to crush land into my orbit.
Tried to make everything live again with your sunlight, as if... everything always revolted around your sun.

Yea, yea right let's
try not to kid ourselves too much.
I realized a little too late.
That you were never worth as much
as what the price tag said.
So I am gonna take a grenade
and bomb your rocket before it
completely pollutants my planet.
I am going, could you notice me?..

You've always been
that bitter after taste.
To my coffee, why couldn't you have been just a bit sweeter ?.
I suffered yes, but if me, and you ever argued you'd be the one to speak of sorrow.
How great that sorrow wasn't..
Because you never
broke up with me.
Now well you've already convinced me.
That it was my fault.
You knew because i didn't..
know how naive I was..

Who knew I was
dating such a grade a actress..
Well now dear lover, It's me..
Who's holding the paint brush and you, yea you! you're the canvas...
and the crimson blood red paint as well..

But after awhile I am
starting to run out..
But this time it's my turn to forget to stop and go further than should have been..
Because this time..
I am gonna take you
with me and will
burn like the sun..
When it falls for the moon...
That's just how much I..
Love you.....
You, your my world when it falls..into utter despair and chaos..
Its just that I am the cause and destruction.

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